The following message (subject: I feel so many emotions all at once!!!) was posted by laurie, on 12/29/2004 7:43:38 PM.

Hi everyone,

My world feels like a pressure cooker. I thought after the 25th I would feel better. For a minute I did, now I feel like I am back inside the pressure cooker trying not to boil over.
I feel very emotional today. I drive and I wonder...."Why Kenney...Why????" I wish I could hit a rewind button and go back to the 15th of September, and just live on that day forever.
Thinking forward is so difficult. I try to think of different things, but, honestly, I take my life one moment at a time these days. I used to always like to "plan" things out and keep things in "order"....but I just don't have it in me anymore to plan anything.
I want to share something from one of the books I am reading......"......understand that our loved ones are still a "part" of our lives- not "apart" from our lives." I like to tell myself that every day now...Kenney is not apart from my life, he is a part of my life.
I am just really missing Kenney today...it hurts.
Laurie, Kenney's sister